A little over a year ago I sold BellaSpark Magazine, a publication I managed for almost ten years. The previous year I stopped doing BellaSpark events. This week I quit my radio show of five years, InnerViews with Kimmie Rose and Donna Visocky. It seems that I have let go of just about everything I had wrapped my life around for the last fourteen years.
A couple of weeks ago I attended a symphony concert. I love the symphony and still hold fond memories of my time with them as Executive Director. Yet as I sat in the audience I realized how much I had changed since I had left to start my own business, to follow my path of exploration. I no longer felt as if this organization, these people and this music were mine. You can’t go back. The voice in my head whispered loudly. You can only go forward.
I awake to sunshine, surprised that my body, somehow knowing that I had no agenda this morning, no time clock to punch, had decided to sleep past its normal 4:00 a.m. rise time. As I prepare for my morning run the light teases me as it filters through the blinds of my east facing windows. “Come play with us,” it whispers. “We are waiting for you. It is spring.”